Need Something New

The other day while I was working at the bank, my cash drawer ended up being $100 over. Crap. I looked at every transaction, but I just couldn't find where that money came from. Then I was stapling a cute poster that I was asked to make to the wall, and my manager got all huffy and told me that "now there's holes all over the walls." Whoops, my bad, but I wasn't told that I couldn't do that and you were right there watching me do it.  I feel like I'm just slipping down the drain with this job. This isn't what I want to do anymore, and I never dreamed of being a bank teller.

I don't like numbers. Math has always been my weakest subject, and I don't know why I go to work here knowing that I have to count and add and subtract ALL DAY. I know that this job is good for me to keep because Mike and I really need the money right now since we're looking for a new apartment and are expecting a baby sometime in the future.

I want to be a professional photographer. I want to get good at what I love, and this requires time and practice. How many days a week I work varies, and i don't get the time that I want to to take artistic pictures. I don't want to be a banker anymore, but I'll stick with it as long as I can because right now I need to provide for me and my husband.

Looking Ahead

The other day, I was making dinner or doing something in the kitchen, and I looked over into our bedroom, and I saw Mike staring at himself in our mirror. It looked like he was very deep in thought, so I asked him what he was thinking and he said that he was thinking by the end of March, I will most likely be pregnant. 

Yep, that's right. Mike and I are trying to have a baby! I took my first prenatal pill this afternoon, and I'm fully off birth control, so I could get pregnant pretty soon! We are both so anxious to be parents. Some may think that it's too soon for us to get pregnant, but we don't think so. We've only been married for a little over 3 months, yes, but we both feel it's the right time. If I do get pregnant by March, our baby will be due sometime in December, and that should give us enough time for Mike to find a good job and for us to save our money. So I'm trying to eat healthier and get in better shape so my body will be a good place for the fetus to grow in, and if anyone has any helpful advice for us, we'll be happy to hear it :)

Can Hardly Wait

Friday and Sunday evenings meant going to Grandma's. Seeing my cousins, making up adventures, hiding from our parents when it's time to go, playing dress-up, jumping on their SUPER bouncy trampoline, and eating yummy treats. This was the life from the time I was about 5 to the time I was about 14. My grandparents lived right in the middle of where 6 of her 9 children lived.

This past weekend I took my sister and my husband to Utah to go visit my grandma and other family that lives with her. They moved to Utah about 3 years ago. There, we got to watch home movies of us children playing together, and we got to reminisce the good old days where everyone got along. I was thinking how we took these easy days for advantage. We had no idea how good we had it to have most of our cousins within 20 minutes of each other and we are all so close in age.

Today in Olympia, there are 3 families, with one we adopted. One lives in Boise, ID, 2 live in Lindon, UT, and the others are scattered about those three states. If we all want to get together, half of us has to drive like 14 hours from state to state.

I can hardly wait for the days where we can all be together again in Heaven, and relive all those memories. I can hardly wait to see our childhoods again, and how much fun we had. I love watching the silly home movies that my Grandpa has and seeing how creative we were. I know that my Grandpa is watching his grandchildren growing up with pride.

A new favorite

So for the past few weeks I've been going to the gym around 8 to go to the Zumba class that is offered on campus. However, all the classes are so full I hardly have room to really get a good workout. I decided to try something different on Tuesday because I didn't want to go in a crowded room with lots of sweaty girls who only go to Zumba on Tuesday nights because there's an attractive man who directs it. I chose to go to the Pilates class that's offered instead and I loved it. There was only 7 of us girls and it was very relaxing. And unlike Zumba, I could feel where I worked my body the next day. Pilates is strengthening, while Zumba is more for fun.

Wish List

Lately I haven't been in the best of moods, and I think it's because my life is so scattered and I don't like it. I like to have my life in order, knowing what I need to do or go next. Since the woman that I nanny for had her twin boys on Friday, she doesn't need me to come watch her kids this week since her husband will be home. So I told the bank that I have an open schedule, and I'm working really odd hours. I don't like this! I was lucky enough to stay at home this morning and it felt...natural. I woke up around 8, did my morning stuff, and then I cleaned the apartment including, doing the dishes and doing laundry. Getting all this done made me happy. I'm looking forward to the days where I can stay home all day and play with the kids.

My wishes (not complaints)

1. I wish that Mike could fast forward to his graduation so he can provide for our family and I can be at home.

2. I wish that we could buy a house of our own so I can decorate it how I want and don't have to worry about noisy upstairs neighbors.

3. I wish that we lived closer to our families.

4. I wish that I had a full-time job close to home.

5. I wish Mike and I had the money we need for a new apartment.

Work before Play

Yesterday my big sister piled into a Jeep with two guys, and they made their long journey to Rexburg, Idaho. At 6:47am, I got a phone call from Elise saying that she was about 10 minutes away from my apartment. I said okay and fell back asleep. At 7:15 I heard a knock on the front door. I yelled for Mike to get it since he was up, but he was shaving so he couldn't hear me. I padded out to get the door, and opened it to see my big sis standing there freezing. I showed her where to put her stuff, and said that I was going to bed, and she's welcome to join me. We laid in bed, wanting to fall asleep, but we kept talking. It was nice to be reunited with her again. I knew that I had to go to work today, but noon came too soon. I was all ready to leave for work just when Elise was getting out of the shower and putting on her makeup for the day. I felt kinda guilty for leaving her for 6 hours, especially since she just drove 15 hours to spend the weekend with me. But my lovely husband decided that he wouldn't go to his last class of the day and spend time with his new sister in-law.

They're going sledding! Yep, they're out at the sand dunes in Saint Anthony having the time of their lives while I'm sitting here by a cold drive-through window, hoping to be taking people's money. Fridays are supposed to be one of the busiest days, but I've been here for over an hour and I've only helped 6 people. Blah.

But I have learned something from this. I am in the position in my marriage where Mike is depending on me to work hard at my jobs so we can have money to live. He is in the position where I depend on him to get good grades so he can have a career and help us earn money for our family. Recently Mike wrote a paper for his English class entitled 'Chores', and he wrote about how his mother's motto for life was always "Work before playing!" Now being the great wife that I am, I got to help him proofread this essay many times until it was perfect, and I learned that it is very important to get all the work done before playing.

So while I'm here wishing for customers to come in to the bank, my sister and husband are sledding. Probably getting bruises and scratches. Lucky!!!

LOVE

"Nobody has measured, even poets, how much a heart can hold." --Zelda Fitzgerald

Those who love, get loved back. With Valentine's Day right around the corner, I'm thinking a lot about love thses days. There are so many different kinds of love, and I probably have experienced all of them. I have the love for the kids that I nanny, and that I have nannied in the past. I have love for my neighbors, co-workers, friends, and enemies. I also have a great love for my family. We have been through so much over the years, and somehow we're still all great friends and care deeply for each other.
My sisters are my best friends in the world (along with my husband, who I'll get to next). Together we have fought with using only our words, made each other cry histarically, laugh until we peed our pants, and have had long talks about serious matters. We have played endless hours with Barbies, and have made them go on many 'adventures'. We've all attended each other's high school graduations, and screamed as loud as we can for the sister who is walking across the stage. We've taken care of each other when one of us gets hurt, or is sick. I can remember a time when I tripped over something at Disney Land and ended up cutting my elbow open. Kimmee was the first to rush me over to a vendor to get a bunch of napkins and ice to put on it until we could make it to the first aid place. She was my hero! Another time was when our kitty, Booger had scratched up Elise's side and I volunteered to help her clean it up. I was Nurse Michelle :) I love my sisters.
My husband has showed me how to give the best love of all-the love for my spouse. Sice I married MIke, my heart has been more open to helping others and being a better person. He loves and cares for everyone--except bad drivers :) He is the best example to me, and I'm anxious to see our children grow up with him as their hero. I love coming home to see that he left a little love note to me on our white board. I get so excited when he comes home from school, I just can't help but wrapping my arms around him in love.
I love love. It is what makes the world go round. I'm making a goal to myself to show more love towards everyone. Even the girls in my Zumba class who don't realize that I have my personal space, and they have theirs.

Food

I am so grateful for good tasting food. Especially when I make it! Tonight Mike and I made dinner together, he cooked the chicken and I made the best tasting rice I've ever had. It's Rice-A-Roni Country Cheddar. Which equals YUM!!!! I had never made it before, but my mom has and I've been craving it for a long time, so I pulled it out of the cupboard this evening. Next I get to work off my lovely dinner with some ZUMBA! Oh how I love zumba. It's so much fun, even though 2 out of the 3 nights I go by myself, I still manage to have a good time. Probably because I love dancing and acting like a fool :)